it's a mess

if i'm gonna to fail, i hv to say that's because of lack of consistency and determination. i did work to hit my target but it seems like my work is far away from enough.

i promised myself not to regret for fooling around. i knew i'm sick...sick of this home. there was time when i got really emo n down. i started crying alone, do everything alone.so,i urgently need to relax and hv some fun instead of study.

sometimes, i complain about my family but i still feel grateful for having this home.

there is a extremely complicated relationship between me and my mum which causes me to become severely vulnerable. i was concentrated about this matter most of the time in this year instead of my study and happy school life.

i am struggling for every moment.

perhaps i should admit that there's no doubt for me IF i fail the exam.

i don't know. life seems to be hard. no..it's STPM!
i may disappoint somebody including myself. i feel sorry.

it's ok. i just hv to learn to accept the cruel truth.

fighting for the next paper!