I feel lazy and emo to start my assignmentSSSSSSSSS even though i know clearly that I am putting myself into big trouble! but what am I doing now is just continue my leisure time and stick to my dear headphones!
I keep asking myself why did I come here? I don't know...I am kinda blur this time. I belong to that kind of aimless person...without ambition is not a positive matter but I just can't help with it.
I was borned to be this way. However, I should fix my weaknesses seriously! I feel intensely annoying with my forgetfulness! I sound stupid all the time for being forgetful! I hate myself sometimes...of course...and I ask myself to think of ways for solution. Hoping things will get better...my mind is a mess now. I am unable to think especially think out of the box! Being creative somehow is the most difficult task for me! Maybe I should apply critical thinking skill... ( but i don't really know what the hell is this!)
All the assignments and coming tests has driven me into craziness. Life is far more complicated than I thought. The world is far larger than I thought. I always run away when I face problems...I know this is not right but I do it all the time. I always drop myself into music box as an escape from the reality.
I realized that i gotta be strong for those who love me and those who I love.
I am supposed to take care of my family and my friends instead of them taking care of me all the time.
It's unfair to receive without giving out.
I am a sinner who desire for forgiveness. Forgiveness starts at the moment of repentance.
Gotta turn into a new leaf!
Gotta be an independent lady!
Gotta make a change!
Gotta live my life to the fullest!
Gotta be aware of things happening around me!
Gotta be more responsible and caring to others!
Gotta be more interative and confident!
Lord, I know that I can't make these without you!
Starving for your guidance and love! Trying to record a piece of miracle in my history! Be tough, big girl!
This is a reminder for me, myself...Sorry for those who I hurted.
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